Dear Diary:

I am ready to make some changes in my life!!!I know that I'm not old, but I'm not getting any younger. In one week I will be turning 29 years old and I think it's about time that I become more pro-active.
I've been thinking a lot lately & I've realized that the majority of my life has been spent waiting. Waiting for a friend to stop by, waiting to start a new project, waiting for better weather. Then what exactly have I been doing in the mean time??? Also, is there ever a "right" time anyways? What the HELL am I waiting for? There is no better time then the present, so, here I am!!!Every moment that passes, is gone, finished, over.I am sick of just wasting time. When I look back on even the past few months, I regret the fact that that i haven't really been making the most of the time that I had.Don't get me wrong, I am always busy with day to day business. I have to young children who depend on me from everything from feeding them to kissing them better when they get hurt. I take my job as a Mom very seriously & I wouldn't change it for the world. But, that's the thing; I find that when a woman becomes a mother, many times they lose themselves.I remember one of the first times I realized the fact that before my mom was "mom" she was first "Karen". It was during her 50th birthday party. She was opening her gift from her older brother & inside was a trumpet.My mom's face lit up & tears quickly came to her eyes. Now, I don't think it was the trumpet alone that made her that happy, but the idea behind the trumpet. You see, before she had us kids, she played the trumpet (really well too) My uncle still sees her as Karen, his little sister, the woman who once played in the school band, participated in track & field, excelled in math class. That is when it all hit me that she is not only my mother but a sister, a daughter, a friend, a woman. This all may sound quite simple, but to me it was an important turning point in my life. The same goes for myself as well. Before I became a mother to 2 intelligent beautiful little girls, I was first a little sister to Barb & Dana, a big sister to Stephanie, Joe, Amanda, Tara, Lisa & Robby.I am a daughter, a niece a friend & a student to name a few. I need to get that back. I need to continue growing & pushing myself further in life. I need to get that back not only for myself, but for my little girls. I have always said that I am not just raising to children, I'm raising two women. I want my little ladies to look up to me & learn from me. Not just the day to day lessons, but life lessons. I want them to grow up knowing that you really can achieve anything you set your mind to. That no matter where you are in life, what age you are or how much money you have (or don't have) you should never lose your passion & you can always set & obtain your goal. "When I grow up I want to be a writer & an artist" What do you want to be? What's your passion??